Monday, June 14, 2004!
HandWritten on; 3:22 PM
i breathed in a large amount of smoke during the 209 claz chalet bbq.
6A clz outing on the 22nd of june. serene jus told me tt it will be at wild wild wet. now i duno whether i shld go. it's like, even if i go, i think i'll 80% NOT SWIM. no no, im not going to embarrass myself. as if ppl dun hate me enough. i had doubts abt dis 6A outing thingy... cos i noe perfectly well that some pple dun like me. not that i blame them, of cos. i noe myself and i hate myself. why why why.
1. WHY ON EARTH AM I SO UGLY???
2. Why oh why am i so STUPID?
3. Why am i so damn it clumsy?
4. Why do i duno when and where to sae what and end up having ppl not happy wiv me?
5. Why am i always so self-conscious?
6. Why do i always have the feeling that i look stupid?
7. Why cant i please everyone?
8. WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY FAULTS?
i think im going mad soon, if not already. i hate myself.
there are more questions to go. but i haf to sae crazepiggies-' make me happy, even for a lil while. thks gurls.